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Let me start off by saying this is a lyric in my song I'm not perfect at all on Rebirth II. This song essentially was an indicator to the listener that I ain't always perfect, I was never meant to be. For all of my life I been conditioned to be perfect for everybody else and in the process lost my true sense of identity. Everything I ever been growing up was a refelction of what I seen and what I was around. However as I got older I started to notice I began to stand out no m

So we are at the final round, and this is where I finally say it, I'm being me regardless of the setting. I was only being perfect to fit the needs of others. I allowed my own guilt to take over in so many scenarios all because I was trying to be perfect for everybody. In doing that, a lot of opportunities missed by me that I never even got to see out. Letting go of what perfection is and holding on to who I am. Final Round explains itself with the lyrics, so I'll combine the

This song would be for the ones that say they still aren't good enough even after hearing that song good enough, what is yours is not mine to carry. I am beginning to realize that this is a perfection of mine that I have learned to practice on a day to day. I used to make everything about me and take shit personal but now I'm older and I understand that we are literally specs of sand in the universe we really don't mean nothing lol so why waste life taking on energy that is n

The explanation is really in the title man I'm good enough, you good enough, she good enough, we good enough! This song is about how I used the phone as a means of validation and how my crave for that attention and praise started with my family, which then grew into something even bigger than ever online. Different people every day say something cool in the comments now some good some bad, but no matter what they say I'll always be good enough because I do not seek the valida

Ok so I will admit, in my I'm not perfects I did mention that you can't do both and now I'm saying that you can do both red and blue, but this song really shuts all them jokes DOWN lol. In Walking in my truth, Xella faces a hard truth that he can't keep his demons away so instead he would rather let them all be there with him. "I would want them to leave but I would end up in a chase"-Xella Swish. This song shuts down the idea of taking both pills very well when I mention the

I honestly love this scene because this is the transition from the imperfect me to the perfect me on the album. The subject of matter is a little different from the beginning its more in your face and I keep it more real with you. But this scene is the moment when Preston decides to give Xella more motivation and letting him know that this side is simply an experience that I'm giving to the people, and it won't matter if the audience thinks it's good or not it will be the aut

I'm living on my own pattern now and it's really been ruling my life for a while. A couple of years ago I was living in this apartment in Austin all on my own, I never knew that I would be so cultivated in that self-love that I would keep it all to me even when others were around. It is this same love however I believe will save me and those who seek the real me and not some polished version that they yearn and desire for. In this song I state how I get caught up in trying to

I been waiting so long to release this song, man it's a thing a beauty. In this song the meaning is all in the title and you already know this. That I'm not perfect at all! I may try to put on that facade in other projects like Ortini pt.2 on Xella Swish II, but the truth is I'm not. However, I refuse to let the imperfection of who I am to define me by any means. I would rather be seen as the imperfect troll than to be people's object of a perfection that doesn't even exist.

This is another one of my imperfections that I would like to express. Yeah, I have a lot of trust issues in regard to being codependent on others to save me. There are times where I don't even trust the god that we all know deep down with my life and I proceed to take matters in my own hands. I can see where I get too extreme with that, but I would rather blame myself then to blame an entity I can't even see with my own two eyes. This song is a reflection of that imperfection

In this song I talk about how some people give the nostalgia memories in the perfect moments so that way no more imperfections and disruptions are created. Hence why I say "Shit don't feel the same/ thought that it was perfect but not with my brain". I thought that by having nostalgia on my side it would help as a means of direction toward my purpose and why I'm here. However, life just so happens to play a joke on me since now that same power on occasions reflect in a negati

I really wanted to make sure that the listener was in rebirth mode with the hook I made lol. It's the classic chant that stays in people's mind now whenever they see me, but this is just the first so let's finally dive in. This track is me simply loving me without no regard to what others would think in any scenario given. I had to realize that my imperfections are the same things that make me shine. They are the same qualities about myself I did my hardest as I grew older to

This scene is a kickoff to the album as well as a throwback to the first part made in 2018. I honestly loved making this album as it was the sequel to my journey musically, my subject of matter is changed, and I tend to express that a lot with this album. The expression of my perfect imperfections after all of those I'm not perfects it was time to build a musical perspective behind it so people could really tune in and understand why I make all of those vids. Not only to expr

"I gotta hold it I gotta save me"-Xella Swish 2025 Ok so you guys know that I made a song called deep within is a hero and I talk about how all of these OF models are bringing me more pain because of them reflecting my lustful feelings back to me. I've come to the realization that it is not them that is bad but your perspective on them. By putting them above you and thinking they are some type of goddess, they have the opportunity to take advantage of you. I realize when you

God's fallen angel You know, life has a funny way of showing you who and what you really are and what you come from. I would like to...

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